
listening to: none
I crack up every time I watch this.
Great work, GanXingba.
My favorite lines:
0:48
"I went to the Light Yagami School of Strategy. I can practically predict the future."
1:34
"Oh well. I've been waiting for an excuse to do this. Beep-beep!"
[Reference: Road Runner. C'mon, tell me you know that.]
2:55
[ROFL]
3:50
"Well hello there, looover."
3:59
"Avatar! Come with me if you want to-- Aww! I used all my finger paint making this mask!"
4:19
"Isn't it a little ironic that sucking on frogs cured for stupid?"
"Oh yeah, like rain on your wedding day ironic."
4:57
"How did you know I was the avatar with that mask on?"
"I don't know if you've noticed but you're the only bald kid in the entire world."
"He's right. You really are.
6:26
"The circle is now complete. When I met you I was but the learner. Now I am the master."
"Only a master of evil, Zhao."
I need to know "what is".

listening to: Utada Hikaru - Flavor of Life
Ok, I edited my 3 most recent blog entries: elaborated them, added pics and vids, and made it one-- like a burger. Err... yeah. Now that made me hungry. Anyway! So this entry is very long and vid-packed, so... enjoy watching... if nothing else.

Cinemalaya 5inco was great. I loved all the films we saw. The short films were good too. Franchez, you should go watch! =D
Thank you so much Pong!
For those who do not know what Cinemalaya is-- it's a film festival held annually in the Philippines (specifically at the Cultural Center of the Philippines in Metro Manila). It features Filipino independent full-length films as well as short films (known as "shorts").
These are the short films that I saw:
[Shorts A]
Andong
Diamante Sa Langit
Maikling Kwento
Putot
Trails of Water
Pong was right on time [perhaps early] there so he got to watch all of 'em. Unfortunately, because I was late [grr] I did not get to watch some of them-- but the ones that I did saw where nice.
The first one was about two brothers who were quite excited to go to this like festival [I really don't know what the celebration was] in a meadow to fly their kite. By the time the siblings came to the meadow, the celebration was over. But that did not stop them from flying the kite. That's especially the part I like. I saw a lot of symbols: the kite, the siblings, the celebration/festival, etc. It could mean a lot of things: The kite symbolizes success as it soars high in the sky. The festival could be like... celebrating the success of these individuals. When the brothers came and found out that the celebration was over, it didn't stop them from flying their kite. Perhaps there's the "no matter what happens, as long as my family’s here" theme. Or it could mean freedom… as the kite flies high in the sky, ready to go wherever the wind takes him. [I'm not going to dive into defiance as the meaning of the kite, you know, with the whole "you can soar in the sky however you want, but you're tied to me" --since the kids exude happiness and contentment.]
...or all the things I said are completely wrong or that I over-analyzed something so simple.

The second one I saw was about this lady whose son [or was it grandson? Oh gosh I forgot na...] recently passed away. The wake was held at this tiny chapel. She was the only one there most of the time. Guess they don’t have relatives around [or they don’t have relatives, period]. Needless to say, she was sad and miserable. One day, a boy came followed by his father. They talked and she felt somewhat consoled. "Misery loves company", after all. I feel so sorry for the woman. It's so hard being alone. The first scene- the bathroom scene—was particularly heartbreaking.
The third movie I saw was set on an obscure village. Residing there was this sort of a… tribe. There was a little girl there who couldn’t speak... or wouldn't. I’m not sure. But it could be... perhaps a sign of Post Traumatic Stress [PTS]. [Take note: loss of speech, refusal to speak, and impaired speech are all different.] There was an incident in her life when people in their village were being murdered and she witnessed it. A close family member was killed. She escaped. Her father resents her afterwards. Maybe he blames her for the incident, I don't know. What I do know is-- she's his daughter. The poor kid witnessed a massacre, give her a break! She's already having a hard time adjusting, the kids in the village make fun of her, and she can't go to school [because she can’t speak... or for whatever reason- if there is other than that]. At least she was alive. Poor girl.
Near the end of the film, it was shown that she's gonna undergo some sort of ritual. [I didn't understand it.] It showed how she wants her father to appreciate her and that she wants her family to be proud of her.
Some people just want something as little as acceptance or recognition... Why is it hard to give? Why? I'd understand it if that person is really bad, to the point that people can’t help but shun him/her, but that little girl is innocent. So sad.
After lunchtime, we immediately went to see the full length films. Here are the trailers of the three films we saw [not in order]. I got the synopsis from the main site.
Sana Ako'y Marinig
Nais kong sumilong sa dilim ng iyong halik
Magbulag-bulagan mawala lang ang sakit
Gustong malasing sa kakaibang damdamin
Wala nang ngunit ngunit
Wala ring aamin
Nais lumayo sa mundo kong kulungan
Ako'y nakagapos, walang patutunguhan
Gustong makita ang mundo mo sa kabila
Isang sulyap lang, sana may pag-asa
Kahit di mo ako mahalin
Kahit saan mo ako dalhin
Kahit isang saglit
Wala man kapalit
Sana ako'y marinig
Kahit isang saglit
Wala man kapalit
Bakit di mo ako marinig?
[What can I say? I fell in love with the song.]
The film is a love story between a Deaf boy who loves to dance and a troubled rocker girl who abuses her hearing. One lives in the world of solitude and silence, the other in noise and fear. Crossing paths in a Baguio camp that mixes Deaf and hearing kids, both find that they have more in common with each other including a love for music.
DINIG SANA KITA is the first Filipino film to have a Deaf Actor in a Lead role. Romalito Mallari is a Deaf performer that has played several stage productions as actor and/or dancer. It also features several Deaf actors in the cast and ensemble.
Insight:
It was one of those "opposites attract" theme of love story. Though it was emphasized that the two of them are different because one can hear and the other can't, I think there's something more to think about than simply the concrete details. Take the terms [used in the synopsis] "solitude and silence" and “noise and fear". They're related. In solitude there is the fear of being isolated. Silence can be deafening. See where I'm going here?
The girl in the film feels lonely because of the situation with her parents. It's the somewhat cliché teen angst about lack of parental support / bad home situation = troublesome, lonely teen. It's an issue nowadays that should not be taken lightly. Adolescence is a crucial stage wherein personality is being developed and there is a need to find/develop one's identity.
Whenever the girl feels troubled, she'll seclude herself, diving to her world of noise. Ah contradictions. She feels lonely yet she secludes herself. She wants to "clear" her mind, yet she listens to loud music. On the other hand, the guy is sad because of his own angst but he doesn't seclude himself. He is more accepting. He is more optimistic. He doesn't run away from his problems. He actually does something about them [like giving his mom the ticket to see the show he's in] unlike the girl. Or maybe she's just fed up with trying to communicate with her parents.

Kanya-kanyang way of dealing with things. So...
I must say, I totally didn't expect the ending. The whole time I was thinking, "What's up with that weird buzzing sound she hears?" *sigh* I swear, how could I miss that? It's a clue. But anyway, I loved the movie.
“Ano kaya ang nararamdaman ng mga taong may-ari ng gamit na yon na isusubasta namin? Paano kung bigay un sa kanila ng magulang nila? O kapatid? O asawa?”
Synopsis:
Sanglaan looks at seemingly simple relationships and uncomplicated events happening in a very mundane institution. A religious and single-minded businesswoman with a losing proposition, afraid of old age. A timid, vulnerable girl hopelessly in love with a high school crush. A security guard whose wife has a fragile heart. A charming and mysterious seaman just passing through. And a loan shark who won't take "no" for an answer. These are some of the characters that populate the milieu of Sanglaan, a light, funny, poignant and very Pinoy story about hope and redemption.
Insight:
It's about letting go, it's about borrowed time, it's about changes. There are a lot of themes within the relationships in this film: love for your spouse, respect for your spouse, love for your child[ren], love for that special someone, trying to understand someone you "hate", making sacrifices, setting your priorities straight, having a goal and going after it, etc.
I begin to wonder what if it was made into a series instead since it has a lot of possibilities Hmm... ok, wondering stops there. If it was made into a series, it will be... changed. It just wouldn't have that factor, that type of emotional impact… that realistic effect-- Pong said that's the charm of indie films after all. So scratch that. It is at its best—an independent Pinoy film. I'm happy I saw this. The night before we saw this, I searched through youtube for the trailer. lol
Unfortunately, I found no Colorum trailer at youtube. Have to settle with the promotional poster:

Synopsis:
Two people. Simon a promising young cop working part-time as a driver of one of the many "undocumented" and 'illegal' FX taxis in the metro. And Pedro, a 70 year old ex-convict. An unfortunate incident forces the two together to embark on a road trip across the Historic Philippine East Coast.
But, what was expected as an escape route doomed to be a domino of crime begetting crime, becomes a wagon of life choices to them and to the people they meet. The film takes a look at the paradox of the human condition, and the "grayscale" morality that is today's Philippines.
Insight:
Sometimes it's the journey that counts, not the destination. Though the two main characters [can't say they're both protagonists, can't say they're antagonists either] became "friends", their relationship was quite rocky. One minute they’re both nice, the next, one of them becomes neurotic [usually Simon] and lethal. They encountered other characters who indirectly changed them: the young lady who wants to abort her child, the preacher who’s corrupts people, a frustrated and suicidal writer, and others with minor roles.
The ending's really tragic but predictable. You can't always have happy endings, after all. I feel so sorry for the old man since the beginning. He's still pitiful in the end. Helpless. Old people begging for forgiveness [especially to their child] is unbearable for me.
But! Though there were a lot of tragic scenes especially in the end, there were a few good laughs too! Really! It was goOoOod.
So there ya go. My first [of the many-to-come-hopefully] Cinemalaya experience.

Here are the list of winners that I got from GMANews.TV.
Best Film: “Last Supper No. 3″
Special Jury Award: “Colorum” and “Ang Panggagahasa Kay Fe” (tie)
NETPAC Award: “Baseco Bakal Boys”
National Council for Children’s Television Award: “Dinig Sana Kita”
Audience Choice (Full Length): “Dinig Sana Kita”
Best Director: GB Sampedro (”Astig”)
Best Actress: Ina Feleo (”Sanglaan”)
Best Actor: Lou Veloso (”Colorum”)
Best Supporting Actress: Tessie Tomas (”Sanglaan”)
Best Supporting Actor: Arnold Reyes (”Astig”)
Best Screenplay: “Nerseri”
Best Cinematography: “24K”
Best Production Design: “Mangatyanan”
Best Editing: “Astig”
Best Musical Score: “Dinig Sana Kita”
Best Sound Recording: “Astig”
Best Short Film: “Bonsai”
Special Jury Award: “Blogog”
Audience Choice (Shorts): “Tatang”
Best Director (Shorts): Dexter B. Cayanes (”Musa”)
Best Screenplay (Shorts): “Behind Closed Doors”

*****
[07.20.2009]
I got to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince at ATC. I should be doing something else entirely different that day but for the sake of spontaneity— I went with them.
Spontaneity!
[I'm starting to like that word.

I gotta say this though: bitin. Ugh. I don't know if I liked it or not. There were a lot of humorous scenes, by the way. I didn't expect that. One scene that I was really excited to watch was the death of sir Dumbledore. It was kind of a let down. [No, I'm not a rabid fangirl screaming about this. I'm not gonna say too much "in the book this, in the book that". I'd just like to comment about it.]
Book: Harry was immobilized by Dumbledore. He witnessed the headmaster's death and he couldn't do anything about it. I'm not sure but… I think he was invisible that time too coz of the invisibility cloak so no one other than Dumbledore knew he was there.
Movie: Harry was in some room [below where Dumbledore was] when Snape found him. Dumbledore was cornered by the Death Eaters [mga alagad ni Voldy]. Since Snape pointed his wand at Harry, Harry "couldn’t do anything". Then Dumbledore was killed.
I don't know. I just liked how the book goes "helpless Harry stuck in place". The desperation… the grief... Ah well, there was also those emotions in the movie scene… but just not helpless enough. He was mobile. He could dodge Snape's attacks for all we would know. [Since he's such a boy wonder, special and all that. Ugh.] Then he could make a diversion or something and flee with Dumbledore. But, yeah, since he's just a kid, perhaps he couldn't pull it off. [So he's not such a boy wonder anymore?] Why am I contradicting myself?
Going back to my point: There's just something in the moment… about being immobile while witnessing something so… agonizing. Oh the woe.
Oh well. Kanya-kanyang interpretasyon nga naman.
Moving on! Here are some pics I took that night. [It's very posed, funny.] I loved hanging out with Jonah, Tania, and May.

May and Tania
These two were the most excited about watching HP6.

May, Jonah, Tania, and yours truly.
We found a guy nearby and threatened him to take a picture of us. LOL Nah, we asked him

This was taken outside the mall.
Target sign: Cinemas

This shot was supposed to be the lights hanging on tree branches.
It looked nothing like it, no?
That is because just when I clicked on the shutter, someone jerked my arm. Thus, it produced this blurred image.
May thinks it’s cool. I think her inner artistic flare was up that night.
It looked more like falling comets than hanging lights.

Guess where we were. XD

May and I: last pic before going home.
I don't know what kind of a funny face I intended to make here. Epic fail.
*****
[08.02.2009]
I browsed around my cookbooks and like always, I had the urge to cook/prepare pasta. Now, really, it happens to me like a hundred times: I browse - I feel the urge - I go to the supermarket - I lose the urge. No, there's nothing within the supermarket that makes me lose that urge to cook, it makes me more excited actually. I see all these pots and pans and other stainless utensils and... I have the urge to like buy 'em all. I drift to cooking wonderland where I am a good chef [not master chef— I could never upstage my family] and I have great time with meat and vegetables. But then after that excitement, well... I dunno. I just lose it.

So there goes the pic. I know, I know. Presentation = 0pts. I was hungry by the time it was done, so...
Oh wait, I know you had to ask: so how was it? Does it taste good? Does it taste awful? Does it even have a taste?
Well! It tastes… fine, actually. I just think I put a little bit too much ground black pepper though. Lol But it wasn't bad. Hooray!
This is the beginning of my legend!
[not]
This is the beginning of my cooking experience!
I just wish my mom was here. She'll love to criticize me in the kitchen.

*****
There are 2 movies I'd like to watch this month:
The Time Traveler's Wife
- based on the novel (I knew it sounds awfully familiar!)
- sci-fi, romance
The song on the trailer is Broken by Lifehouse (--a favorite).
Post Grad
- just coz I like to watch Alexis Bledel on screen (LOL) and seems interesting.. perhaps something about it will inspire my future post grad self about.. whatever lol..
Another movie I'd like to watch that I don't know yet when it'll be released is: Veronika Decides To Die. It's also based from a novel. Sarah Michelle Gellar plays Veronika and Paulo Coelho liked her performance. I must watch this (then I might read the book).
*****
For next year, here is the movie I can’t wait to watch!
Tim Burton's take on Alice In Wonderland!
I love fairytales that are altered. I love fairytales that go modern. I love fairytale remakes. Hee hee hee...
Just as a long as it's not corny, too mushy, or shallow.
I found the teaser on youtube.
I love the costumes.
Can't wait.

Labels: awesome, event, melancholy, movie, ponder, psychology, video
I need to know "what is".
[from the movie Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru (AKA Heavenly Forest)-- a favorite]
Someday, I would find...
Labels: fandom, song lyrics, video
I need to know "what is".

listening to: Moment of Truth - FM Static
Quick entry. Just got home. Need to eat dinner first. So happy I bought 2 pairs of shoes. One was on sale. One's purple, the other was gold. Not sure if I could wear it to school though; gotta talk to the guards.
Later after I ate and tidy up my room and the kitchen, I'm gonna edit this entry and talk about my busy week: thesis title, the earthquake rumor, Mom's changing decision, etc.
[edit]
Or perhaps the next week. I have prelims coming up. I might not blog till it's finished. -_- Anyway-- look what's on finally!
I'll have to comment on this later. Okay fine, one comment: Check out Robert Pattinson's look on 00:23. His eyes are GORGEOUS.
I gotta say that I was the first to sign in the reservation list for Breaking Dawn at Robinsons Imus. *cackles* Edward! Edward! Edward!


Ahem. Gotta stop hoping coz it ain't gonna happen. LOL
Ta-ta for now.[/edit]
Labels: book, bought, fandom, plans, random, video
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listening to: Everything - Alanis Morissette
Our 2008 Acquaintance Party was fun! I really enjoyed it-- and I was surprised about that. I had this bad gut feeling yesterday afternoon that something "bad" will happen. As it turned out, May didn't get to join us coz of some problem at home. At least it wasn't something I could handle, thank goodness. Pero sayang pa rin di sya nakasama.
I've less than 100MB. You get what I mean. Pics will be up later. *sigh* I need more space!
Here's a vid tribute to my friends who know me.. my dimensions.. the good and bad points.. and still love me for simply being me. Sorry for being too neurotic sometimes, guys. Sorry if I worry you too much. I'll be fine. Enjoy my new fav song. =)
Note: I noticed the song in this video is the edited one.. but despite that, I put the orig lyrics at the bottom (not whole though). You'll notice I crossed-out the parts of the lyrics that doesn't depict me while I bolded the ones that hit me correctly. Haha.
Thanks for putting up with me through all these years.
I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
Who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone
Who is as positive as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still hereI blame everyone else & not my own partakingMy passive aggressive-ness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone
Who is as closed down as I am sometimes
What I resist persists and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love no matter how low or high I go
I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known and you've never met anyone
Who is as everything as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
Labels: friendship, school, song lyrics, video
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listening to: none
I couldn't sleep. My insomia is attacking me as usual. From what I recall, I didn't consume much sweets today. I lay in bed, wondering why I couldn't go to sleep. I decided to use the net and went through blogs, and here's what I saw!
Yami: How about you? Who have you come as?LittleKuriboh went to the ReCon with his fiancé Safty (she's dressed as Ryo Bakura) and they went with Yami [the plushie]! In this video, LittleKuriboh does his versatile dubbing using Dan Green's voice acting-- which I absolutely love. Yami goes around asking cosplayers some random stuff. There are a lot of Naruto cosplayers by the way. The humor behind this is, for those who doesn't watch anime abridged series, that fans seem to think that the Naruto Abridged series rivals that of Yu-gi-oh the Abridged series. [YGOAS is the first of the now booming anime abridged series. It was made by Little Kuriboh. I'm not being biased about that fact since I did watch NAS before I discovered YGOAS.] In my humble opinion, I think YGOAS is better than the NAS since the voices (dubbed by LK) are so similar to the original American dubbers that you'd get this amused feeling that what you're watching is real down to its comedic sense! It has certainly fulfilled the fantasies of fans [like me] that would like Yu-gi-oh to be more humorous.
Boy dressed as Rock Lee: I'm Rock Lee.
Yami: Rock Lee. From--from what show?
BdaRL: Naruto.
Yami: Never heard of it!
BdaRL: *laughs*
Yami: Does that involve card games?
BdaRL: No.
Yami: Oh. That's the same show she had.
[Deidara and the boy before.. is a he. LOL]
Yami: Do you have ninja info cards?
I love it when Yami the plushie goes around and comments on random stuff.
That and to *coughmakefunoftheseriousnessofplayingchildren'scardgamescough*. ^^'
So anyway, it gets me thinking-- if I were to go to anime cons (I've been wishing to), I wonder who I'll come as. Given the chance [with available and affordable costumes and props], I'd probably dress as Haruno Sakura from Naruto or Amane Misa from DeathNote or Tifa Lockheart from FF7 or Misty from Pokémon or Higurashi Kagome from Inu Yasha or Kaname Chidori from Full Metal Panic or Yuuki Miaka from Fushigi Yuugi or Mikage Aya from Ayashi no Ceres or Kinomoto Sakura from Cardcaptor Sakura [just coz I love the clothes she wears made by Tomoyo] or Mazaki Anzu from Yu-gi-oh or Honda Touru from Fruits Basket or... well, I can't name them all! LOL I just brainstormed a bit. So there. I doubt I'll be able to do it though, what with school and other stuff. Besides, I might be too old before I get the chance. I'd rather have my costume and do pictorials on my own then put it up on deviantart.
The reason why I couldn't go to sleep yet was probably because I'm destined to watch this so that I would be in a good mood before sleeping.. yeah. I just love exaggerating. I hope I dream about Yami. LOL
"Haha. Moo."
One last thing: I want a Yami plushie so baaad! The only plushies (if it could be called that) I have are Clefairy-turning-pokéball and a Clefa. I had it years ago. I want a.. er.. human character plushie. There goes my birthday wish. LOL
Labels: anime/manga, cosplays, fandom, video
I need to know "what is".