"Because she is my rose."
Sunday, August 15, 2010 @ 8:19 PM
listening to: silence
..one of my favorite lines in the book.
I wanna wanna change my layout... but there's so much for me to choose from! I'll probably get lazy about this again. *sigh* Oh well.I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on. "One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you — the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundred of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose."
~ The Little Prince; XXI
..one of my favorite lines in the book.
I wanna wanna change my layout... but there's so much for me to choose from! I'll probably get lazy about this again. *sigh* Oh well.
I need to know "what is".
Scholastic!
Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 1:36 PM
mood: 
a bit lethargic [I'm kinda sick.]
listening to: Never Could Have Been Worse - Tsuneo Imahori
I love it. I love it even though I look like a zombie now, with less to no appetite for almost any type of food, and of course sleep-deprived. No-- I wasn't being sarcastic at that. Humorous, yes. Not sarcastic.
I honestly like it when I'm busy with school work. The only downside is-- the schedules. But I will always find time for myself. [Like right now, for example.]
I'm taking a break from making 2 reports, both from Mrs. Maguad's class:
Filipino Psychology
Psychological Interview
The Fil.Psych report is a bit hard for me coz I have to translate a lot of Filipino texts to English coz our subject in the curriculum states that it must be learned in the English language. Unfortunately for me, the sources [books] are in Filipino.
For those who know me well, I'm having a hard time translating this in a textbook kinda way. You know how it is, right? The paper must be written in that context not in like a way that a teenager would just say whatever he wants.
It must be like this for example:
"Ito'y mga metodong subok na ang kakayahang lumikom ng impormasyon sa kulturang Pilipino at angkop sa pag-uugali at pang-araw-araw na pamumuhay ng mga Pilipino."
= These are reliable methods used in collecting information about the Filipino Culture, in relation to their behavior in their daily lives.
.. or something like that. [I'm still unsatisfied with my translation. Boo.]
..and not like this:
= These methods are reliable and can be used to get information about the Filipino Culture. It's related to their behavior and their everyday lives.
I remember our Department Head, Dr. Barron, told us to "write scholarly." [Or did she mean "scholastically? Ah, whatever.]
So yeah. I've been typing in Filipino for the past hours. I'm not done with it yet. Later, I'll try to finish them and then translate the whole thing. Again, for those who know me pretty well [in class], you know I tend to put a lot of info on my reports, ne? This time, I'll try to make it 4 pages tops. (With the usual all sides 0.50 margin, times new roman size 11, line spacing exactly 13pt, all spacing 0pt.)
So anyway, what other school stuff I have to worry about?
So there.
On a lighter note, ever since I made a facebook account, I became addicted to Pet Society [though I'm always broke there, I refuse to use the cheats], Typing Maniac [oh the adrenaline! lol], and Happy Farm [I like to plant, take care of 'em, and then harvest.. online that is]. I like Happy Farm better than Farm Town coz I understand it more. Sunshine Ranch is almost like a replica of Happy Farm but most of my friends use Happy Farm so... I haven't been on Barn Buddy. I wonder if that's fun too.
Moving on to the last thing I'd like to blog about. I found the book that I thought I'd never get a copy of!
It's Tithe by Holly Black. There's always the sequels on the bookstores, but never the first one... Until the day that I found one at Fully Booked! I practically grabbed it, thinking 'no way...'. =D I might make a review after I finish it.
The book that I recently finished reading was Maximum Ride by James Patterson. Hooray for light reading! I loved it. I have to wait a while though before I buy the second book. I have a lot of expenses lately. Ah the anticipation.
May took this shot when we ate at Pizza Hut. I look like a dork.
Oh yeah. One last thing: I'm gonna change my blog's layout soon. I just have to find a layout that suits my mood. I can't decide yet.
I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
a bit lethargic [I'm kinda sick.]listening to: Never Could Have Been Worse - Tsuneo Imahori
"By a man's fingernails, by his coat-sleeve, by his boots, by his trouser-knees, by the calluses of his forefinger and thumb, by his expression, by his shirt-cuffs, by his movements-- by each of these things a man's calling is plainly revealed. That all united should fail to enlighten the competent enquirer in any case is almost inconceivable."I have a lot of school work nowadays.
~ Sherlock Holmes, 1887
I love it. I love it even though I look like a zombie now, with less to no appetite for almost any type of food, and of course sleep-deprived. No-- I wasn't being sarcastic at that. Humorous, yes. Not sarcastic.
I honestly like it when I'm busy with school work. The only downside is-- the schedules. But I will always find time for myself. [Like right now, for example.]
I'm taking a break from making 2 reports, both from Mrs. Maguad's class:
Filipino Psychology
Psychological Interview
The Fil.Psych report is a bit hard for me coz I have to translate a lot of Filipino texts to English coz our subject in the curriculum states that it must be learned in the English language. Unfortunately for me, the sources [books] are in Filipino.
For those who know me well, I'm having a hard time translating this in a textbook kinda way. You know how it is, right? The paper must be written in that context not in like a way that a teenager would just say whatever he wants.
It must be like this for example:
"Ito'y mga metodong subok na ang kakayahang lumikom ng impormasyon sa kulturang Pilipino at angkop sa pag-uugali at pang-araw-araw na pamumuhay ng mga Pilipino."
= These are reliable methods used in collecting information about the Filipino Culture, in relation to their behavior in their daily lives.
.. or something like that. [I'm still unsatisfied with my translation. Boo.]
..and not like this:
= These methods are reliable and can be used to get information about the Filipino Culture. It's related to their behavior and their everyday lives.
I remember our Department Head, Dr. Barron, told us to "write scholarly." [Or did she mean "scholastically? Ah, whatever.]
So yeah. I've been typing in Filipino for the past hours. I'm not done with it yet. Later, I'll try to finish them and then translate the whole thing. Again, for those who know me pretty well [in class], you know I tend to put a lot of info on my reports, ne? This time, I'll try to make it 4 pages tops. (With the usual all sides 0.50 margin, times new roman size 11, line spacing exactly 13pt, all spacing 0pt.)So anyway, what other school stuff I have to worry about?
1. 2 quizzes on Dr. Barron's classes this week
2. our title defense on Friday for our Research in Psychology.. I still need to research a lot of stuff for it.. and make an intro.. shouldn't rely on groupmates..
3. visual aids for the two reports [that are on Tuesday and maybe Wednesday]
4. journal on our 3 fields of OJTs
5. my OJT sched
6. still no venue for the Acquaintance Party [which will be on the 27th]
7. pre-lims will start in 21, I think
8. have to transfer notes on my "serious notebook".. I write my notes on my scratch notebook.. I could freely use my "chicken-scratch handwriting there"..
9. look through the member profiles and record each member's birth dates in order to make a birthday section on one of the bulletin boards.. have to think of the designs for them too..
So there.
On a lighter note, ever since I made a facebook account, I became addicted to Pet Society [though I'm always broke there, I refuse to use the cheats], Typing Maniac [oh the adrenaline! lol], and Happy Farm [I like to plant, take care of 'em, and then harvest.. online that is]. I like Happy Farm better than Farm Town coz I understand it more. Sunshine Ranch is almost like a replica of Happy Farm but most of my friends use Happy Farm so... I haven't been on Barn Buddy. I wonder if that's fun too.
Moving on to the last thing I'd like to blog about. I found the book that I thought I'd never get a copy of!
It's Tithe by Holly Black. There's always the sequels on the bookstores, but never the first one... Until the day that I found one at Fully Booked! I practically grabbed it, thinking 'no way...'. =D I might make a review after I finish it.The book that I recently finished reading was Maximum Ride by James Patterson. Hooray for light reading! I loved it. I have to wait a while though before I buy the second book. I have a lot of expenses lately. Ah the anticipation.
May took this shot when we ate at Pizza Hut. I look like a dork.
Oh yeah. One last thing: I'm gonna change my blog's layout soon. I just have to find a layout that suits my mood. I can't decide yet.
Labels: book, psychology, school
I need to know "what is".
Holy Week, Fables, I Drew Again(?!), Manga-- the Eco-Hope(?!), Funny English
Friday, April 10, 2009 @ 6:15 PM
mood: 
dislikes the hot weather
listening to: There She Goes - The La's
How's your Holy Week so far?
I remember when I was little, I'm an unsanera and I'm also part of the church choir (for a short while) of St. Mary Magdalene School in Kawit (my hometown). Weeks before Holy Week, we would collect all kinds of colorful paper then my mom and I would cut them into little square pieces. I would have a cute basket and a nice dress for the said occassion. My mom's gay friend Tito Jimboy would do my hair and make-up. Kapag may Salubong, my mom would wake me up so early in the morning so that we'll watch the event near the church.
Yup, those were the days. Now... I couldn't even remember which day the Unsana and the Salubong would fall into. I guess you could say, I relied on my mom on these kinds of things. I wasn't very into it so... But it's kinda fun... Colorful for the most part. We're not really the religious type but my mom wants me to participate on these kinds of town activities. My family owns a "karo " and they take part in the prosisyon. I used to help with the flowers (usually sampaguita).
I guess now with my age and the fact that I don't go to SMMS anymore and I don't live in Kawit anymore either, I'm free from that mandatory obligation. I don't want to volunteer anyway coz I always find it awkward to be with my relatives (them, specifically). However, I didn't expect that right this moment, I actually miss being an unsanera. Oh the confettis... *hums*
Perhaps it's from being generally lethargic this week. Perhaps it's because of the weather (freakin' hot recently, my room's an oven!). Or perhaps it's because I miss Mom.
She'll be coming home this month... next week na actually. I'm getting excited. I desperately wanna hang-out with her. But that is also why I'm a bit disappointed with my OJT schedule. Ah whatever, it's not like I could change that now.
*****
So what's up with me this week? Well, (at home) got a lot of free time to be lazy and mope-y. Gladys and I watch movies while doing our own stuff. Multi-tasking ftw!
She recently made a "sandal" (I don't know exactly the name of the footwear) from her slippers. It looked pretty cool, I'm proud of her! I'll put a pic of it here later.
Just yesterday, we had a Yu Yu Hakusho marathon (season 1), the english dub one (coz I miss Justin Cook and Chris Sabat's voices). I pretty much memorized most of their lines anyhow so I seldom watch-watch, I just listen to them while drawing. Yup, you read it right. After 2 years, my "dormant" hand drew again. I drew 3 girls. The last one, I didn't get to finish. The first one didn't look so good coz I was experimenting on poses and it was rather hard for me to stay away from the basic profile look I usually draw. The second one was my favorite of the three. I think it turned out nice. I'll post pictures of it here later. I don't have a scanner, so... don't expect the image to be good. 
Moving on to reading-- I recently got into Fables, a comic book series/graphic novel by Bill Willingham, thanks to Pong. The plot's pretty interesting to those who likes to "see" (read about) fairytale characters on a different perspectives. The "what-ifs" are established and fantasy and reality got "close". Mind you though (and Pong warned me hehe), this series is not for children. There are some mature content within like violence, infidelity, revenge, and other themes.
The artworks in Fables (by Mark Buckingham, Lan Medina, Steve Leialoha, and Craig Hamilton) were great. Only a few friends of mine know that when I was little, I made about 5 comic strips. I couldn't draw that "well" back then and it's hard to umm draw the background (like furnitures and other stuff) so I lost interest afterwards. I still wanted to draw though. Heck, I used to even draw on tissue papers. Just gimme a pen or a pencil and I would draw on anything... anything within the range of what is moral and legal, I mean. So anyway, initially, I thought of trying to draw Snow (my version) yesterday. I didn't get to though, but someday I will. I might even draw other princesses.
Btw, has anyone read the latest chapter of Naruto (manga)? I'm getting excited of the outcome of Naruto and Nagato's talk. Perhaps Naruto's altruism, kindness, and "charm" will save everyone. But that will just be too easy, so... Hmmm. Anyway, where the heck is Sasuke now? I didn't notice his absence for like 6 chapters already.
*****
Speaking of manga, here's an interesting link I saw today after I checked my yahoo email. Here's what I read:
"... create 500,000 new jobs by 2020"
- the part I liked the most
*****
Here's something else I'd like to share: I got the link from a fellow plurker. It's a bit amusing:
*****
The current songs on my playlist:
(Hmm maybe I should make this list every week..?)
I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
dislikes the hot weatherlistening to: There She Goes - The La's
How's your Holy Week so far?
I remember when I was little, I'm an unsanera and I'm also part of the church choir (for a short while) of St. Mary Magdalene School in Kawit (my hometown). Weeks before Holy Week, we would collect all kinds of colorful paper then my mom and I would cut them into little square pieces. I would have a cute basket and a nice dress for the said occassion. My mom's gay friend Tito Jimboy would do my hair and make-up. Kapag may Salubong, my mom would wake me up so early in the morning so that we'll watch the event near the church.
Yup, those were the days.
Now... I couldn't even remember which day the Unsana and the Salubong would fall into. I guess you could say, I relied on my mom on these kinds of things. I wasn't very into it so... But it's kinda fun... Colorful for the most part. We're not really the religious type but my mom wants me to participate on these kinds of town activities. My family owns a "karo " and they take part in the prosisyon. I used to help with the flowers (usually sampaguita).I guess now with my age and the fact that I don't go to SMMS anymore and I don't live in Kawit anymore either, I'm free from that mandatory obligation. I don't want to volunteer anyway coz I always find it awkward to be with my relatives (them, specifically). However, I didn't expect that right this moment, I actually miss being an unsanera. Oh the confettis... *hums*
Perhaps it's from being generally lethargic this week. Perhaps it's because of the weather (freakin' hot recently, my room's an oven!). Or perhaps it's because I miss Mom.
She'll be coming home this month... next week na actually. I'm getting excited. I desperately wanna hang-out with her. But that is also why I'm a bit disappointed with my OJT schedule. Ah whatever, it's not like I could change that now.
*****
So what's up with me this week? Well, (at home) got a lot of free time to be lazy and mope-y. Gladys and I watch movies while doing our own stuff. Multi-tasking ftw!
She recently made a "sandal" (I don't know exactly the name of the footwear) from her slippers. It looked pretty cool, I'm proud of her! I'll put a pic of it here later.Just yesterday, we had a Yu Yu Hakusho marathon (season 1), the english dub one (coz I miss Justin Cook and Chris Sabat's voices).
I pretty much memorized most of their lines anyhow so I seldom watch-watch, I just listen to them while drawing. Yup, you read it right. After 2 years, my "dormant" hand drew again. I drew 3 girls. The last one, I didn't get to finish. The first one didn't look so good coz I was experimenting on poses and it was rather hard for me to stay away from the basic profile look I usually draw. The second one was my favorite of the three. I think it turned out nice. I'll post pictures of it here later. I don't have a scanner, so... don't expect the image to be good. Moving on to reading-- I recently got into Fables, a comic book series/graphic novel by Bill Willingham, thanks to Pong. The plot's pretty interesting to those who likes to "see" (read about) fairytale characters on a different perspectives. The "what-ifs" are established and fantasy and reality got "close". Mind you though (and Pong warned me hehe), this series is not for children. There are some mature content within like violence, infidelity, revenge, and other themes.
The artworks in Fables (by Mark Buckingham, Lan Medina, Steve Leialoha, and Craig Hamilton) were great. Only a few friends of mine know that when I was little, I made about 5 comic strips. I couldn't draw that "well" back then and it's hard to umm draw the background (like furnitures and other stuff) so I lost interest afterwards. I still wanted to draw though. Heck, I used to even draw on tissue papers. Just gimme a pen or a pencil and I would draw on anything... anything within the range of what is moral and legal, I mean. So anyway, initially, I thought of trying to draw Snow (my version) yesterday. I didn't get to though, but someday I will. I might even draw other princesses.
Btw, has anyone read the latest chapter of Naruto (manga)? I'm getting excited of the outcome of Naruto and Nagato's talk. Perhaps Naruto's altruism, kindness, and "charm" will save everyone. But that will just be too easy, so... Hmmm. Anyway, where the heck is Sasuke now? I didn't notice his absence for like 6 chapters already.
Yondaime Hokage: I... am your father!
*****
Speaking of manga, here's an interesting link I saw today after I checked my yahoo email. Here's what I read:
TOKYO (AFP) - - Japan's manga and anime heroes could come to the rescue of the recession-hit economy, Prime Minister Taro Aso, an avid fan of the country's cartoons, said in a speech Thursday.This is the article. It's certainly a "who-woulda-thought" moment for me. The consumers of such merchandize will have a sense of fulfillment when they read this... kinda makes their actions err... justified.
"The word 'manga' has entered the global lexicon... Japan has materials that attract consumers around the world such as animation, games, fashion -- so-called 'Japan Cool'," the conservative premier told a press conference.
As the world's number two economy is struggling with its deepest post-war recession, Aso said the government could facilitate overseas exports of manga, video games, fashion and other "soft power" cultural products.
"Many Japan-based fashion magazines enjoy top-level popularity" in the Chinese market, said the 68-year-old premier.
"By linking the popularity of Japan's 'soft power' with business, we wish to grow it into a major industry worth 20-30 trillion yen (200-300 billion dollars) and create 500,000 new jobs by 2020," he said in a speech.
Known for his sometimes gruff manner, Aso has sought to soften his image in recent years by casting himself as a Japanese "otaku" -- someone whose hobby borders on obsession -- by praising manga.
"... create 500,000 new jobs by 2020"
- the part I liked the most
*****
Here's something else I'd like to share: I got the link from a fellow plurker. It's a bit amusing:
Here's the link to the site.there is no egg in eggplant
no ham in hamburger
and neither pine nor apple in the pineapple
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France
we sometimes take English for granted
but if we examine its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand takes you down slowly
boxing rings are square
and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor it is a pig
if writers write, fingers don't fing
if the plural of tooth is teeth
shouldn't be the plural of phone booth be phone
beeth?
if the teacher taught
why didn't the preacher praught?
if a vegetarian eats vegetables,
what the heck does a humanitarian eat? (This part cracks me up.)
why don't people recite at play
yet play at recital?
park on driveways and drive on parkways
how can the weather be as hot as hell on one day
and as cold as hell on another?
you have to marvel at the unique lunacy
of a language where a house burn up as it burns down
and which you fill in a form by filling it out
and a bell is only heard once it goes?
English was invented by people, not computers
and it reflects the creativity of the human race
that is why, when the stars are out, they are visible
but when the lights are out, they are invisible
and why is it that when i wind up my watch
it starts
but when i wind up this poem
it ends?
*****
The current songs on my playlist:
(Hmm maybe I should make this list every week..?)
Ashlee Simpson - Invisible
You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
Bethany Joy Lenz - Don't Walk Away
If I made a promise
I would stay by your side
Its only the beginning
I love you
Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels Like Home
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Jimmy Eat World - Kill
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
Jojo - Not That Kinda Girl
I'm not your every day, around the way
Don't go car-hoppin', chillin' on the block
On a cell phone frontin'
Never that, coz I'm not that kinda girl
Katherine Mcphee - Over It
That's why (your words)
I'm over it (so sure)
I'm over it (I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
Natalie - Love You So
You can say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Ok Go - Invincible
Invincible
You're invincible
That crushing, crashing, atom-smashing, white-hot thing
It's invincible
The Corrs - Breathless
So go on, go on
Come on leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me
'Till I can't deny this
Loving feeling
Let me long for your kiss
Go on, go on
Yeah come on
Train - Calling All Angels
When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said
Valeria Andrews and Ryan Toby - Pay Attention
If you wanna be somebody
If you wanna go somewhere
You better wake up and pay attention
When the time is now or never
To make your dreams come true
You gotta wake up and pay attention
Labels: awesome, book, event, random, song lyrics
I need to know "what is".
Twilight Official Trailer and some updates
Sunday, July 20, 2008 @ 7:03 PM
mood: 
tired but a bit cheerful
listening to: Moment of Truth - FM Static
Quick entry. Just got home. Need to eat dinner first. So happy I bought 2 pairs of shoes. One was on sale. One's purple, the other was gold. Not sure if I could wear it to school though; gotta talk to the guards.
Later after I ate and tidy up my room and the kitchen, I'm gonna edit this entry and talk about my busy week: thesis title, the earthquake rumor, Mom's changing decision, etc.
[edit]
Or perhaps the next week. I have prelims coming up. I might not blog till it's finished. -_- Anyway-- look what's on finally!
The official trailer was released! Yay!
I'll have to comment on this later. Okay fine, one comment: Check out Robert Pattinson's look on 00:23. His eyes are GORGEOUS.
I gotta say that I was the first to sign in the reservation list for Breaking Dawn at Robinsons Imus. *cackles* Edward! Edward! Edward!
I want my own "Edward".
Ahem. Gotta stop hoping coz it ain't gonna happen. LOL
Ta-ta for now.[/edit]I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
tired but a bit cheerfullistening to: Moment of Truth - FM Static
Quick entry. Just got home. Need to eat dinner first. So happy I bought 2 pairs of shoes. One was on sale. One's purple, the other was gold. Not sure if I could wear it to school though; gotta talk to the guards.
Later after I ate and tidy up my room and the kitchen, I'm gonna edit this entry and talk about my busy week: thesis title, the earthquake rumor, Mom's changing decision, etc.
[edit]
Or perhaps the next week. I have prelims coming up. I might not blog till it's finished. -_- Anyway-- look what's on finally!
I'll have to comment on this later. Okay fine, one comment: Check out Robert Pattinson's look on 00:23. His eyes are GORGEOUS.
I gotta say that I was the first to sign in the reservation list for Breaking Dawn at Robinsons Imus. *cackles* Edward! Edward! Edward!
I want my own "Edward".Ahem. Gotta stop hoping coz it ain't gonna happen. LOL
Ta-ta for now.[/edit]
Labels: book, bought, fandom, plans, random, video
I need to know "what is".
His Presence
Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 11:44 PM
mood: not so good
listening to: none
Am I repressing? Is it really repression when I didn't intend it to happen? I am confused about it. I mean, usually with an emotion this strong, my normal self would probably bury her face on her hands or on her pillow, or stare blankly with waterfalls constantly flowing on both eyes...
I remember that one time when sis Chamie was having "love-problems" with her past lover. She told me how she's hurting but she couldn't let out the feeling. She thought of ways to make her cry just so she could fend off that pain accumulated in her chest.
Maybe I'll release this before I sleep. I certainly don't want to "suffocate" to death. This type of difficulty of breathing is nothing like when I'm having my severe allergy attack. It hurts more but it's certainly more tolerable than a runny-nose. Or perhaps it has nothing to do with what I've read earlier. Perhaps it's some chemical reaction.. like low oxygen level in my room. Yeah, maybe that was it. (Though I'm sure my room is sufficiently ventilated.)
The quote from The Wuthering Heights was exactly the way I felt.I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
not so goodlistening to: none
I'd just finished Eclipse; May returned it to me this afternoon. I continued from where I left off after I had dinner. (It was a few days ago that I decided to no longer wait. It was as if the book itself beckoned me.) I was seriously trying not to cry on the later chapters that indicate conclusion (almost) from Bella to Jacob. Perhaps because I've already experienced similar circumstances that's why I could feel my chest tighten while I was reading. (I was Jacob in the situation-- no, I wasn't pushy like him, in fact, I am nothing like him.) Still, as I am typing this, my chest hurts. It is as if I swallowed too much water and that my lungs could not handle it any longer. I did try my hardest not to cry while reading. I really did. A few drops escaped and that was it, but I feel proud I didn't weep. Though with the heaviness of my chest right now, I'm not so sure anymore what I should've done."If all else perished,
And he remained,
I should still continue to be;
And if all else remained,
And he were annihilated,
The universe would turn to a mighty stranger."
~ Wuthering Heights
Am I repressing? Is it really repression when I didn't intend it to happen? I am confused about it. I mean, usually with an emotion this strong, my normal self would probably bury her face on her hands or on her pillow, or stare blankly with waterfalls constantly flowing on both eyes...
I remember that one time when sis Chamie was having "love-problems" with her past lover. She told me how she's hurting but she couldn't let out the feeling. She thought of ways to make her cry just so she could fend off that pain accumulated in her chest.
Maybe I'll release this before I sleep. I certainly don't want to "suffocate" to death. This type of difficulty of breathing is nothing like when I'm having my severe allergy attack. It hurts more but it's certainly more tolerable than a runny-nose. Or perhaps it has nothing to do with what I've read earlier. Perhaps it's some chemical reaction.. like low oxygen level in my room. Yeah, maybe that was it. (Though I'm sure my room is sufficiently ventilated.)
The quote from The Wuthering Heights was exactly the way I felt.
Labels: book, melancholy
I need to know "what is".
Reservations At Bookstores
Sunday, June 08, 2008 @ 10:06 PM
mood: 
quite excited
listening to: I Got You - Nikki Flores
You know what's the worst thing you hear when you're in a bookstore and eager to purchase a specific book? The words from the customer service sayin', "We ran out of stock and we don't know when our supplier will come." Add a cherry on top and you got this: "Also, there's no guarantee that the supplier will deliver the specified book[s]." Grr. So yeah, my ears have been accustomed to that recently [for almost a month]. BUT! Thanks to a text message from Marie, I finally got a copy of Eclipse. It's not the special edition though, but I'm glad all the same. (I can't complain; I already have it!) I've been waitin' for it. (Okay, okay, May and I have been waitin' for it.) So I finally got it-- forgot the exact date but it's this week. I was at school and it was near lunch time. I became spontaneous so I decided to just go to Robinsons in Imus in about a minute of thinking. Yes, yes, I do have my moments.
[Here's a note: There's something that pissed me off about that. They didn't even contact me when they got the books! It's like I left details and stuff about my reservation for nothin'! Wth! That's why I think it's better to annoy them than trust them. Call them every other day and ask for the book. It's their job to check it anyway. Besides, I've learned it this way. They won't contact you despite the reservation details. Argh!]
Though I've got the book already, I've decided not to read it till.. maybe August-- if I could resist that long, that is. LOL (I probably won't.) So why wait, you ask? Haha.. I just thought that maybe if there's something I'd be eager to do in between the release of Breaking Dawn (it's on August 2, I heard) and Twilight the movie, then it will be less dreadful on those months. Does that sound weird? Whatever. I'll test my patience. For now, I'll wait for Breaking Dawn.I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
quite excitedlistening to: I Got You - Nikki Flores
You know what's the worst thing you hear when you're in a bookstore and eager to purchase a specific book? The words from the customer service sayin', "We ran out of stock and we don't know when our supplier will come." Add a cherry on top and you got this: "Also, there's no guarantee that the supplier will deliver the specified book[s]." Grr. So yeah, my ears have been accustomed to that recently [for almost a month]. BUT! Thanks to a text message from Marie, I finally got a copy of Eclipse. It's not the special edition though, but I'm glad all the same. (I can't complain; I already have it!) I've been waitin' for it. (Okay, okay, May and I have been waitin' for it.) So I finally got it-- forgot the exact date but it's this week. I was at school and it was near lunch time. I became spontaneous so I decided to just go to Robinsons in Imus in about a minute of thinking. Yes, yes, I do have my moments.[Here's a note: There's something that pissed me off about that. They didn't even contact me when they got the books! It's like I left details and stuff about my reservation for nothin'! Wth! That's why I think it's better to annoy them than trust them. Call them every other day and ask for the book. It's their job to check it anyway. Besides, I've learned it this way. They won't contact you despite the reservation details. Argh!]
Though I've got the book already, I've decided not to read it till.. maybe August-- if I could resist that long, that is. LOL (I probably won't.) So why wait, you ask? Haha.. I just thought that maybe if there's something I'd be eager to do in between the release of Breaking Dawn (it's on August 2, I heard) and Twilight the movie, then it will be less dreadful on those months. Does that sound weird? Whatever. I'll test my patience. For now, I'll wait for Breaking Dawn.
Labels: book, bought, fandom, friendship
I need to know "what is".
That Crooked Smile Bella Loves
Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 11:19 PM
mood: 
looove
listening to: none
I've been pretty addicted to the novel Twilight by Stephenie Meyer since my uncle bought the book for me when I was staying in Switzerland. (I could've bought the book way before that but it's always out of stock in the bookstores around here.) I've been interested about it for so long so when I read it, it's certainly very invigorating for me. LOL I suppose just like any girl who loves a mysterious and gorgeous guy, I somehow find myself falling in love with Edward Cullen. That and the fact that he's err.. inhuman. You see, it's been years since I'm trying to find a vampire romance novel that doesn't include too much umm how do I say this.. sexuality.. the morbid-ness (is that the correct term? .. morbidity?) amongst other things. Pardon me; I couldn't explain it in a more simple and blunt way. Anyway, I'm also not fond of those kinds of novels with middle-aged characters. No offense about that, really. I just enjoy reading characters that are close to my age range and even if I am getting older too fast (I'm turning 20 in August), I don't think I'd lose that interest in reading teen novels-- not that Twilight is only for teens coz it's not. Many adults and children read and enjoy it too, which proves just how appealing it is.
Chamie stayed with me for 3 days and 2 nights (sleep-over) starting the day after I came back home to the Philippines. I appreciate it since I really need someone around because my depressive tendencies were starting to slowly eat me again. So when I told her about Twilight, it seems she's interested in it too-- but she refuses to read the book ["That's the Twilight book? It's so thick!"]. She prefers to watch the movie. In our country, it opens in January 2009. Great. We get to live in suspence. I'm so excited that I watch the trailer and the video below over and over and over and over and ["Oh stop."] over and over again. LOL
Here's the other video with the scenes from the set of Twilight and some random interviews from the cast. Enjoy. =3
I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
looovelistening to: none
I've been pretty addicted to the novel Twilight by Stephenie Meyer since my uncle bought the book for me when I was staying in Switzerland. (I could've bought the book way before that but it's always out of stock in the bookstores around here.) I've been interested about it for so long so when I read it, it's certainly very invigorating for me. LOL I suppose just like any girl who loves a mysterious and gorgeous guy, I somehow find myself falling in love with Edward Cullen. That and the fact that he's err.. inhuman. You see, it's been years since I'm trying to find a vampire romance novel that doesn't include too much umm how do I say this.. sexuality.. the morbid-ness (is that the correct term? .. morbidity?) amongst other things. Pardon me; I couldn't explain it in a more simple and blunt way. Anyway, I'm also not fond of those kinds of novels with middle-aged characters. No offense about that, really. I just enjoy reading characters that are close to my age range and even if I am getting older too fast (I'm turning 20 in August), I don't think I'd lose that interest in reading teen novels-- not that Twilight is only for teens coz it's not. Many adults and children read and enjoy it too, which proves just how appealing it is.
[Though thinking about it, Vampire Knight does come close to the kind of vampire romance/angst story I've been wanting. (I'm also heavily drawn to Zero so.. hehe) But still...]So aside from liking Twilight coz the characters are teens, there's romance, sarcasm here and there (absolutely love the humor), and that character you can't help but love (*coughEdwardcough*), it also amazed me how Bella Swan is a lot like me. I swear. When I was reading the book (it's on Bella's POV), it's like reading something I've experienced/did/said or would have thought/done/said (sans the vampire encounters of course). It feels so great that I get to read a novel with a female character who is so much like me coz that way, I know I'm not the only one around who's *ahem* different. The result? Now, I'm officially addicted to it.
Chamie stayed with me for 3 days and 2 nights (sleep-over) starting the day after I came back home to the Philippines. I appreciate it since I really need someone around because my depressive tendencies were starting to slowly eat me again. So when I told her about Twilight, it seems she's interested in it too-- but she refuses to read the book ["That's the Twilight book? It's so thick!"]. She prefers to watch the movie. In our country, it opens in January 2009. Great. We get to live in suspence. I'm so excited that I watch the trailer and the video below over and over and over and over and ["Oh stop."] over and over again. LOL
Here's the other video with the scenes from the set of Twilight and some random interviews from the cast. Enjoy. =3
Labels: anime/manga, book, fandom, friendship, movie
I need to know "what is".
Absence
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 10:53 PM
mood: fine and dandy
listening to: [a song that's not familiar to me]
Guys, I'm sorry I've been too busy and tired lately. My mom and I are trying to cover as many sites as possible. We rarely spent hours on the hotel. Yesterday, we went to the wax museum, Queen's Art Gallery, and the Buckingham Palace [outside of it]. I've been around Kensington High Street, Portobello, etc. Hopefully this week we'll be able to go to the London Bridge. My mom and I are a bit hesitant about riding London's Eye but ah well, we'll see.
A random thing that comes to mind: The keyboard here in Europe is different. Some keys are not in the usual places. I get confused when I need to type a certain punctuation mark. I have to find it. Ah well.
About the tag [Ate Jonah], I'm constantly reminding myself that I should make the list whenever something pops on my mind so hopefully by the next time I go OL here, I'll be able to post it. =)
Well guys, I miss you all. I don't know if you receive my text messages (I use my mom's mobile) coz some of you don't reply but hopefully you get them. Thanks to those who take time and spend a peso whenever they think of me. Like I say, little things like that is enough to make me happy. I'll post about other stuff that happened to me here for the past few weeks pati ung sa Switzerland next time. [Then when I finally come home on the 8th of May, I'll upload lots of pics.]
There's no YM here in this internet cafe so I couldn't leave a message for you there but I might leave a message on friendster. So, catch up with you guys later! TCCIC!
[It's been so long that I've been away from a computer and internet but surprisingly I haven't an episode of withdrawal syndrome.. yet, I suppose. I seldom turn on my mp3 player too. Very odd of me.]
Btw, I'm loving Twilight. =) Edward Cullen is like a dream.I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
fine and dandylistening to: [a song that's not familiar to me]
Guys, I'm sorry I've been too busy and tired lately. My mom and I are trying to cover as many sites as possible. We rarely spent hours on the hotel. Yesterday, we went to the wax museum, Queen's Art Gallery, and the Buckingham Palace [outside of it]. I've been around Kensington High Street, Portobello, etc. Hopefully this week we'll be able to go to the London Bridge. My mom and I are a bit hesitant about riding London's Eye but ah well, we'll see.
A random thing that comes to mind: The keyboard here in Europe is different. Some keys are not in the usual places. I get confused when I need to type a certain punctuation mark. I have to find it. Ah well.
About the tag [Ate Jonah], I'm constantly reminding myself that I should make the list whenever something pops on my mind so hopefully by the next time I go OL here, I'll be able to post it. =)
Well guys, I miss you all. I don't know if you receive my text messages (I use my mom's mobile) coz some of you don't reply but hopefully you get them. Thanks to those who take time and spend a peso whenever they think of me. Like I say, little things like that is enough to make me happy. I'll post about other stuff that happened to me here for the past few weeks pati ung sa Switzerland next time. [Then when I finally come home on the 8th of May, I'll upload lots of pics.]
There's no YM here in this internet cafe so I couldn't leave a message for you there but I might leave a message on friendster. So, catch up with you guys later! TCCIC!
[It's been so long that I've been away from a computer and internet but surprisingly I haven't an episode of withdrawal syndrome.. yet, I suppose. I seldom turn on my mp3 player too. Very odd of me.]
Btw, I'm loving Twilight. =) Edward Cullen is like a dream.
Labels: book, fandom, random, travel
I need to know "what is".
Searching, Looking, and Dreaming
Monday, April 14, 2008 @ 2:13 AM
mood: quite dandy
listening to: I Believe - Blessed Union of Souls
I went to National Bookstore [SM B] in the hopes that there might be Twilight on stock now. Unfortunately, there's still none. I asked the lady on Customer Service and she said that there's really no specific date their supplier comes. It's such a let down for me; I really really wanna read it. I got the number of NB in Robinson's Imus but their line's always busy.
I've been trying to decide which book I would bring on my trip since I noticed that I'll be staying at Abu Dhabi airport for about 6hrs. What could a girl like me do for such a long period of time? I've no laptop, I couldn't put my mobile account on unlimited text, and I won't have a game console to amuse myself-- bringing my old GameBoy will just add weight and more batteries to bring. (Btw, I'm quite interested with PSP nowadays. Hmm.) I guess I could like look around, maybe even take some pictures but heck, I don't think I could do that for 6hrs you know? Besides, I might "glue" myself near the terminal just so that I could prevent myself from getting lost and that would save me time from asking people where I should go. *sigh* For some reason I really worry about getting lost in an airport with foreigners. o_o'
So anyway, I've decided that if there's no Twilight then I'll just buy The Looking Glass Wars.. and so I did! =D I've only read the back and the prologue (yeah, couldn't resist). It seemed nice so far and I adore the originality of the plot. Hopefully it will keep me awake long enough for my flight to London, calm my nerves, and stimulate my imagination.
Aside from buying The Looking Glass Wars, I also bought The Illustrated Dream Dictionary by Russel Grant, illustrated by Vicky Emptage, from BookSale. I've been looking for a cheap dream interpretation book lately and this one is below P100, probably because it's kinda old (©1996). Nevertheless it has a lot of symbols there and are quite helpful. I managed to interpret my past dream and it's so accurate, it's freaky. So now, to understand my unconscious, I'll probably try to keep track of my dreams and the symbols/objects on it. I won't probably do it all the time though since sometimes I'm too lazy to write or I won't remember the dream much. I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'll bring this to my trip. It won't occupy much space on my luggage.I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
quite dandylistening to: I Believe - Blessed Union of Souls
I went to National Bookstore [SM B] in the hopes that there might be Twilight on stock now. Unfortunately, there's still none. I asked the lady on Customer Service and she said that there's really no specific date their supplier comes. It's such a let down for me; I really really wanna read it. I got the number of NB in Robinson's Imus but their line's always busy.
I've been trying to decide which book I would bring on my trip since I noticed that I'll be staying at Abu Dhabi airport for about 6hrs. What could a girl like me do for such a long period of time? I've no laptop, I couldn't put my mobile account on unlimited text, and I won't have a game console to amuse myself-- bringing my old GameBoy will just add weight and more batteries to bring. (Btw, I'm quite interested with PSP nowadays. Hmm.) I guess I could like look around, maybe even take some pictures but heck, I don't think I could do that for 6hrs you know? Besides, I might "glue" myself near the terminal just so that I could prevent myself from getting lost and that would save me time from asking people where I should go. *sigh* For some reason I really worry about getting lost in an airport with foreigners. o_o'
So anyway, I've decided that if there's no Twilight then I'll just buy The Looking Glass Wars.. and so I did! =D I've only read the back and the prologue (yeah, couldn't resist). It seemed nice so far and I adore the originality of the plot. Hopefully it will keep me awake long enough for my flight to London, calm my nerves, and stimulate my imagination.
Aside from buying The Looking Glass Wars, I also bought The Illustrated Dream Dictionary by Russel Grant, illustrated by Vicky Emptage, from BookSale. I've been looking for a cheap dream interpretation book lately and this one is below P100, probably because it's kinda old (©1996). Nevertheless it has a lot of symbols there and are quite helpful. I managed to interpret my past dream and it's so accurate, it's freaky. So now, to understand my unconscious, I'll probably try to keep track of my dreams and the symbols/objects on it. I won't probably do it all the time though since sometimes I'm too lazy to write or I won't remember the dream much. I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'll bring this to my trip. It won't occupy much space on my luggage.
I need to know "what is".
The hopefully final sched
Tuesday, April 08, 2008 @ 11:34 PM
mood: stressed
listening to: Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam
I never thought I'd live the day when I get tired of SM. I had to keep coming to SM to Active Travel and other travel agencies for days to check if there are available flights to London or Switzerland. (As you can see, we're really on a tight spot.) I had a seat at Cathay Pacific but unfortunately it was cancelled due to some holiday that I don't bother to know. Then after two days later I got a seat on Etihad airways. So yeah, I get to roam around the mall, checking out some of my favorite clothes stores and whatnots. Look at the shirt I bought from GG. "Sorry, it's not my day to care." I love it. (Totally opposite on my current predicament.) XD As always, I also go to the bookstores. I swear I still couldn't find a good enough dream analysis book, and a copy of Tithe: The Modern Faerie Tale. The sequel, Ironside and Valiant is always available though. I can't read a book without starting with the first one. (But I must confess I had skipped a second book from a certain fav trilogy. The story still made sense to me so it's ok haha-- and I'll buy the book when I'll have extra money.) And then there's the The Looking Glass Wars. I find it very interesting. I haven't seen the sequel book, Seeing Red, anywhere though. By the way, I've been dying to read Twilight. Frances, lucky you. I wonder if I'll like Edward Cullen too. I wonder.
This afternoon I got a call from my mom. She told me that she's going to Germany so that the ticket won't be wasted. She's so lucky. I really really wanna see Tita Phine and my cousin Rey. It's been so long. *sigh* She also told me that they a good plan and that she bought me an electronic ticket-- London to Switzerland. So here's my schedule: (the final, I hope] *crosses fingers on both hands*
I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".
stressedlistening to: Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam
I never thought I'd live the day when I get tired of SM. I had to keep coming to SM to Active Travel and other travel agencies for days to check if there are available flights to London or Switzerland. (As you can see, we're really on a tight spot.) I had a seat at Cathay Pacific but unfortunately it was cancelled due to some holiday that I don't bother to know. Then after two days later I got a seat on Etihad airways. So yeah, I get to roam around the mall, checking out some of my favorite clothes stores and whatnots. Look at the shirt I bought from GG. "Sorry, it's not my day to care." I love it. (Totally opposite on my current predicament.) XD As always, I also go to the bookstores. I swear I still couldn't find a good enough dream analysis book, and a copy of Tithe: The Modern Faerie Tale. The sequel, Ironside and Valiant is always available though. I can't read a book without starting with the first one. (But I must confess I had skipped a second book from a certain fav trilogy. The story still made sense to me so it's ok haha-- and I'll buy the book when I'll have extra money.) And then there's the The Looking Glass Wars. I find it very interesting. I haven't seen the sequel book, Seeing Red, anywhere though. By the way, I've been dying to read Twilight. Frances, lucky you. I wonder if I'll like Edward Cullen too. I wonder.This afternoon I got a call from my mom. She told me that she's going to Germany so that the ticket won't be wasted. She's so lucky. I really really wanna see Tita Phine and my cousin Rey. It's been so long. *sigh* She also told me that they a good plan and that she bought me an electronic ticket-- London to Switzerland. So here's my schedule: (the final, I hope] *crosses fingers on both hands*
April 14 - April 15Estimated time of everything: approximately 23 hrs. It's almost 2 days. *sigh* This must be my punishment for my incompetence of reading European passport expiration dates. Well, it's better than not going, right? I won't care if I'm dead tired as long as I get to be with my mother dear. Sana matuloy naaa.
04:10pm - departure from Manila
08:45pm - arrival to Abu Dhabi
02:45am - departure from Abu Dhabi
07:30am - arrival to London [Heathrow]
[go to British Airlines through taxi]
12:00pm - departure from Heathrow
03:00pm - arrival to Switzerland [Zurich]
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."Thanks, Marie. You don't know of it but your text messages help me calm down sometimes. I miss you, girl.
~ Jeremiah 29:11
Labels: book, bought, schedule, travel
I need to know "what is".
