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Absence
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 10:53 PM

mood: fine and dandy
listening to: [a song that's not familiar to me]

Guys, I'm sorry I've been too busy and tired lately. My mom and I are trying to cover as many sites as possible. We rarely spent hours on the hotel. Yesterday, we went to the wax museum, Queen's Art Gallery, and the Buckingham Palace [outside of it]. I've been around Kensington High Street, Portobello, etc. Hopefully this week we'll be able to go to the London Bridge. My mom and I are a bit hesitant about riding London's Eye but ah well, we'll see.

A random thing that comes to mind: The keyboard here in Europe is different. Some keys are not in the usual places. I get confused when I need to type a certain punctuation mark. I have to find it. Ah well.

About the tag [Ate Jonah], I'm constantly reminding myself that I should make the list whenever something pops on my mind so hopefully by the next time I go OL here, I'll be able to post it. =)

Well guys, I miss you all. I don't know if you receive my text messages (I use my mom's mobile) coz some of you don't reply but hopefully you get them. Thanks to those who take time and spend a peso whenever they think of me. Like I say, little things like that is enough to make me happy. I'll post about other stuff that happened to me here for the past few weeks pati ung sa Switzerland next time. [Then when I finally come home on the 8th of May, I'll upload lots of pics.]

There's no YM here in this internet cafe so I couldn't leave a message for you there but I might leave a message on friendster. So, catch up with you guys later! TCCIC!

[It's been so long that I've been away from a computer and internet but surprisingly I haven't an episode of withdrawal syndrome.. yet, I suppose. I seldom turn on my mp3 player too. Very odd of me.]

Btw, I'm loving Twilight. =) Edward Cullen is like a dream.

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

Last Entry For This Month
Monday, April 14, 2008 @ 9:35 AM

mood: nervous
listening to: Hold On - B*witched

Well, this would be my last entry for this month. As for the very few people who know of this blog (since I didn't want to tell it to some of my friends coz it's still underconstruction), I'll be on hiatus for a while. The "while" part being approximately less than a month. If you've read my earlier posts then you'll know what I mean.

To my friends who only found out about it through this blog or through word of mouth, I'd like to apologize for not telling you-- I have my reasons. I really don't want a lot of people to know about it and besides, once I get back with pasalubong, you'll know eventually and then it will be like I never left. I'd really like to surprise you guys. So there. That's 1/3 of my reasons. LOL

By the way, Ate Jonah tagged me so I have to put a list of 6 weird things about me. Since I couldn't do it right this moment, I'll do it once I get back. I promise. =)

I was feeling kind of lonely yesterday and my dream analysis book was accurate again. Some disappointments here and there. Sis Chamie didn't get to sleep-over coz her wisdom tooth somehow picked this [wrong] time to ache. (My wisdom tooth aches so bad recently too but that doesn't keep me from doing things. Oh well, people have their reasons so..) But she promised to tag along for my departure today so we're picking her up along the way to the airport.

I was supposed to do my last errands with May but with the time and way-of-communication conflict, I didn't get to see her. Darn. I miss you, May! We'll hang-out more next month, hopefully.

*sigh* Please pray for my safe flight. I'll be on the plane 8 times for this vacation trip. Yeah. Imagine how it is for me who hates plane-induced nausea. Ugh. Oh and right now, I feel so nervous,

For the second time, I'll miss you all. Take care always and God bless you.

One last thing: It's really raining outside! It's been a while since it rained! Is there a fox wedding somewhere or is this some kind of farewell gift from above? LOL

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

Searching, Looking, and Dreaming
@ 2:13 AM

mood: quite dandy
listening to: I Believe - Blessed Union of Souls

I went to National Bookstore [SM B] in the hopes that there might be Twilight on stock now. Unfortunately, there's still none. I asked the lady on Customer Service and she said that there's really no specific date their supplier comes. It's such a let down for me; I really really wanna read it. I got the number of NB in Robinson's Imus but their line's always busy.

I've been trying to decide which book I would bring on my trip since I noticed that I'll be staying at Abu Dhabi airport for about 6hrs. What could a girl like me do for such a long period of time? I've no laptop, I couldn't put my mobile account on unlimited text, and I won't have a game console to amuse myself-- bringing my old GameBoy will just add weight and more batteries to bring. (Btw, I'm quite interested with PSP nowadays. Hmm.) I guess I could like look around, maybe even take some pictures but heck, I don't think I could do that for 6hrs you know? Besides, I might "glue" myself near the terminal just so that I could prevent myself from getting lost and that would save me time from asking people where I should go. *sigh* For some reason I really worry about getting lost in an airport with foreigners. o_o'

So anyway, I've decided that if there's no Twilight then I'll just buy The Looking Glass Wars.. and so I did! =D I've only read the back and the prologue (yeah, couldn't resist). It seemed nice so far and I adore the originality of the plot. Hopefully it will keep me awake long enough for my flight to London, calm my nerves, and stimulate my imagination.

Aside from buying The Looking Glass Wars, I also bought The Illustrated Dream Dictionary by Russel Grant, illustrated by Vicky Emptage, from BookSale. I've been looking for a cheap dream interpretation book lately and this one is below P100, probably because it's kinda old (©1996). Nevertheless it has a lot of symbols there and are quite helpful. I managed to interpret my past dream and it's so accurate, it's freaky. So now, to understand my unconscious, I'll probably try to keep track of my dreams and the symbols/objects on it. I won't probably do it all the time though since sometimes I'm too lazy to write or I won't remember the dream much. I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'll bring this to my trip. It won't occupy much space on my luggage.

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

Finalizing Things
Wednesday, April 09, 2008 @ 8:52 PM

mood: head hurts
listening to: Pathetique - Beethoven

We went to Makati to finally cancel my ticket on Singapore Airlines. We also went to the Spanish Embassy so that I could get my renewed passport. I like the new design. The profile area is smooth and shiny. LOL. Plus sis Chamie and I had fun during our rides. We talked and kept laughing.


A plane model in Singapore Airlines.

spot the spidermenI like the angle of the two buildings. If only the third one on the top-left would more right.
I took these shots on the way to the van. They are quick shots so I didn't get much time to concentrate on better angles but I think it came out quite good. I'm still a novice. I'm a bit proud though that the original bigger picture is not blurred. I've got steady hands that time! =D

If you look closely on the left picture, you could see some workers going down. Tita Ceci called them "Spidermen". At first I didn't get it coz I didn't notice. Late reaction. LOL. Oh and there was this security guard who actually posed. He called out to me, "Hey! Would you care to take a picture of me? I'm ready!" while posing. It's pretty nice to know that there are still friendly and cheerful people out there despite the outrageous temperature outside. (It's very hot and sunny.) It somehow lightened my mood.


I visited some sites this afternoon and found some psychological/personality tests. I'm really addicted to these tests. I love knowing myself more from my unconscious side. The ones from Tickle are really good coz they're pretty accurate and from the credits and sources in details, you would really think it's reliable. The one I'm gonna post here is not from Tickle though. LOL It's from Quizbox. Some are pretty accurate, some are predictable. I took a lot of quizzes there recently, you should try it. Anyway, here's one result:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You can take it here. =)
I was a bit amazed reading it. It's very accurate. I'm not sure if this coming semester we will be learning how to make these kinds of psychological/personality tests or not, but we will be for sure sooner or later. I just love learning more about symbolism.

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

The hopefully final sched
Tuesday, April 08, 2008 @ 11:34 PM

mood: stressed
listening to: Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam

Sorry, it's not my day to care. I never thought I'd live the day when I get tired of SM. I had to keep coming to SM to Active Travel and other travel agencies for days to check if there are available flights to London or Switzerland. (As you can see, we're really on a tight spot.) I had a seat at Cathay Pacific but unfortunately it was cancelled due to some holiday that I don't bother to know. Then after two days later I got a seat on Etihad airways. So yeah, I get to roam around the mall, checking out some of my favorite clothes stores and whatnots. Look at the shirt I bought from GG. "Sorry, it's not my day to care." I love it. (Totally opposite on my current predicament.) XD As always, I also go to the bookstores. I swear I still couldn't find a good enough dream analysis book, and a copy of Tithe: The Modern Faerie Tale. The sequel, Ironside and Valiant is always available though. I can't read a book without starting with the first one. (But I must confess I had skipped a second book from a certain fav trilogy. The story still made sense to me so it's ok haha-- and I'll buy the book when I'll have extra money.) And then there's the The Looking Glass Wars. I find it very interesting. I haven't seen the sequel book, Seeing Red, anywhere though. By the way, I've been dying to read Twilight. Frances, lucky you. I wonder if I'll like Edward Cullen too. I wonder.

This afternoon I got a call from my mom. She told me that she's going to Germany so that the ticket won't be wasted. She's so lucky. I really really wanna see Tita Phine and my cousin Rey. It's been so long. *sigh* She also told me that they a good plan and that she bought me an electronic ticket-- London to Switzerland. So here's my schedule: (the final, I hope] *crosses fingers on both hands*

April 14 - April 15
04:10pm - departure from Manila
08:45pm - arrival to Abu Dhabi
02:45am - departure from Abu Dhabi
07:30am - arrival to London [Heathrow]
[go to British Airlines through taxi]
12:00pm - departure from Heathrow
03:00pm - arrival to Switzerland [Zurich]
Estimated time of everything: approximately 23 hrs. It's almost 2 days. *sigh* This must be my punishment for my incompetence of reading European passport expiration dates. Well, it's better than not going, right? I won't care if I'm dead tired as long as I get to be with my mother dear. Sana matuloy naaa.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
~ Jeremiah 29:11
Thanks, Marie. You don't know of it but your text messages help me calm down sometimes. I miss you, girl.

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
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Yami at ReCon
Sunday, April 06, 2008 @ 2:26 AM

mood: amused
listening to: none

I couldn't sleep. My insomia is attacking me as usual. From what I recall, I didn't consume much sweets today. I lay in bed, wondering why I couldn't go to sleep. I decided to use the net and went through blogs, and here's what I saw!



Yami: How about you? Who have you come as?
Boy dressed as Rock Lee: I'm Rock Lee.
Yami: Rock Lee. From--from what show?
BdaRL: Naruto.
Yami: Never heard of it!
BdaRL: *laughs*
Yami: Does that involve card games?
BdaRL: No.
Yami: Oh. That's the same show she had.
[Deidara and the boy before.. is a he. LOL]
Yami: Do you have ninja info cards?
I love it when Yami the plushie goes around and comments on random stuff.
LittleKuriboh went to the ReCon with his fiancé Safty (she's dressed as Ryo Bakura) and they went with Yami [the plushie]! In this video, LittleKuriboh does his versatile dubbing using Dan Green's voice acting-- which I absolutely love. Yami goes around asking cosplayers some random stuff. There are a lot of Naruto cosplayers by the way. The humor behind this is, for those who doesn't watch anime abridged series, that fans seem to think that the Naruto Abridged series rivals that of Yu-gi-oh the Abridged series. [YGOAS is the first of the now booming anime abridged series. It was made by Little Kuriboh. I'm not being biased about that fact since I did watch NAS before I discovered YGOAS.] In my humble opinion, I think YGOAS is better than the NAS since the voices (dubbed by LK) are so similar to the original American dubbers that you'd get this amused feeling that what you're watching is real down to its comedic sense! It has certainly fulfilled the fantasies of fans [like me] that would like Yu-gi-oh to be more humorous.

That and to *coughmakefunoftheseriousnessofplayingchildren'scardgamescough*. ^^'

So anyway, it gets me thinking-- if I were to go to anime cons (I've been wishing to), I wonder who I'll come as. Given the chance [with available and affordable costumes and props], I'd probably dress as Haruno Sakura from Naruto or Amane Misa from DeathNote or Tifa Lockheart from FF7 or Misty from Pokémon or Higurashi Kagome from Inu Yasha or Kaname Chidori from Full Metal Panic or Yuuki Miaka from Fushigi Yuugi or Mikage Aya from Ayashi no Ceres or Kinomoto Sakura from Cardcaptor Sakura [just coz I love the clothes she wears made by Tomoyo] or Mazaki Anzu from Yu-gi-oh or Honda Touru from Fruits Basket or... well, I can't name them all! LOL I just brainstormed a bit. So there. I doubt I'll be able to do it though, what with school and other stuff. Besides, I might be too old before I get the chance. I'd rather have my costume and do pictorials on my own then put it up on deviantart.

The reason why I couldn't go to sleep yet was probably because I'm destined to watch this so that I would be in a good mood before sleeping.. yeah. I just love exaggerating. I hope I dream about Yami. LOL

"Haha. Moo."

One last thing: I want a Yami plushie so baaad! The only plushies (if it could be called that) I have are Clefairy-turning-pokéball and a Clefa. I had it years ago. I want a.. er.. human character plushie. There goes my birthday wish. LOL

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

No jokes whatsoever.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 @ 9:52 PM

mood: stressed
listening to: Bad Day - Daniel Powter

my Phil. passport and 2 sets of new pics We went around Manila and Makati today to renew my passport and to re-book my flight. First we went to this place where I got my passport picture taken. The first photo unfortunately was taken with a blue background. I realized the mistake [a Spanish passport picture must have a white background]a few seconds after starring at it. I forgot to ask the man taking the shot to make my background white; they must've thought I'm issuing for a Philippine passport and I'm too clouded to realize that. It scares me sometimes that I have these moments of being an airhead. I don't like airheads and you can very well imagine my feeling if I'm categorized as one. So there you go. I had to take another picture. Seeing my defeat, the man in charge told me that I could use those set of pictures when it's the time my Phil. passport needs renewal, which will be in 10 years. I doubt they would be pleased to put my nineteen y.o. picture on it when I'll be twenty-nine that year. Damn it.

I had a Tofi Luk and a chocolate drink on the way to Singapore Airlines. As much as I love chocolate, it's a big no-no to have a chocolate snack coupled with a chocolate drink. Having two big bites of Tofi Luk and I'm already craving cold water. It didn't help that the 7/11 store that I bought those two items from had their aircondition broke down, thus the drink is a bit luke warm to me. It's also unfortunate that our ride only provided a freakin' electric fan. Having the windows of the vehicle open for ventilation would've been a good idea-- except the rays of the sun seem to fry my skin. So it's great, you know, I'm consuming luke warm beverage while eating chocolate on a sunny day in a hot vehicle. Did I mention I didn't get enough sleep as usual and that I hate traveling too early in the morning? *sigh* Just to make things clear, I am merely relating what happened. When I was in that state, I was too gloomy to think any complaints. I was just too anxious to get things right. But yeah, now I'm kinda complaining. Late reaction di ba? Airhead moment count: 3

To make this short, we went to Singapore Air, asked a bunch of questions, went to Spanish embassy, issued for renewal of my passport, went back to Singapore Air to re-book my flight in accordance to the date my new passport's release, and finally went home.

Good news: My mom handled the news better than expected. She did cry on the phone yesterday, scolded me a little then she calmed down a bit. I'm very thankful she's understanding. I love her to death. Now I just need to give myself some kind of punishment.

The lady at the embassy said I could get my new passport (with a new design) on the 9th. I'm currently on the waiting list for the flights on 10th and 11th. So now we're like being chased by time. We worry about our scheduled stay in Germany; the flight and hotel there. It sucks so bad that by the time I could go out the country, my days in Europe will be lesser than planned. It sucks sooo bad. I was hoping to indulge staying there for 30 days and now it's down to less than 20. Arrgh!

I was OL on YM, talking to Frances. I told her that I didn't get on board. At first she didn't believe me; she said it's April Fool's day and that my joke is not very effective. I was surprised coz I wasn't even aware what day it was. Airhead moment count: 4. I told her that I wasn't kidding coz I couldn't possibly be online if I was there since I don't have a laptop or would have any source of internet and computer there. So she eventually believed me.

I'm so stressed out, I hope with this undying effort, things will be set right again. Sana matuloy naaaaaa to. T_T

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".