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What Could Be, What WOULD Be
Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 11:45 PM

listening to: Renai Shashin - Otsuka Ai

[from the movie Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru (AKA Heavenly Forest)-- a favorite]

Someday, I would find...

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @ 10:49 PM

Things are looking up for me these past few days.
I get to hang out with the friends I missed at school.
Mom's not that mad at me anymore.
I got my doctor's check-up. (The follow-up's a problem though-- sched.)
I got another Learning-Spanish book. This one looks interesting.
A friend of mine, whom I'm constantly worried about seems safe in her new abode.
I got interested in reading again-- both in paperback and manga.

I need to continue organizing this blog.
I neglected it again.


I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

See You Later
Monday, June 01, 2009 @ 5:13 AM

listening to: none

And so,
like any other dreadful day in my life,
this day finally came.

When I get back home today,
I'll start the life I left behind
45 days ago.

I don't want to go back.
I'd rather have this life with Mom.
But I know it won't happen...

Time to immerse myself
in tangeble things again.
I need to be distracted.

I won't care what anyone says anymore
because they don't know
and they won't feel
the loneliness I feel
for the rest of the days
(approximately 320 days)
of the year that I have to live.

Being an only child,
you'd think I would've gotten
used to this.
But I guess...
I won't.

Cherish your parents
and your siblings.
You're lucky to have them.

Please pray for my mother's safe trip[s].


I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".