listening to: none
6hrs of sleep in three days.
10hrs of sleep on the fourth day.
My body succumbed to exhaustion.
Neither caffeine nor sugar could save me from my sleepiness.
Irritation and anxiety is still evident.
Pero at least I'm almost always an hour early sa OJT.
I feel like I'm not myself.
People usually misunderstood my irritations. They think that I'm mad at them.
Wanna know what's usually the reason?
The truth is... most of the time, I'm irritated at myself.
You see it's not all about you/them.
It's just... me.
Ugh. This is why I hate being sleep-deprived. Kung ano-ano ang naiisip ko.
Mom's been here for 3 days now. Hindi pa kami nakakapagbonding. Kung hindi sya busy, ako naman ang wala. Nakakainis!
They made plans on going to Grandma's tomorrow. Mom just told me tonight. And I thought I'd finally have a weekend "day off" (coz on Sunday I'll have to go to the mall to buy a Theories of Personality book).
I'll probably post something here about our OJT at Cavite Center For Mental Health later. I'm just not in the mood to write anything about it.
I have to cheer myself up somehow... in any way possible.
I need some peace and quiet.
I locked myself up in my room this afternoon.
I sought refuge from plurk and my plurk pals.
I wonder if I would put my blog URL on my profile there.
I might have it photocopied and colored.
Btw, si Mond nagtatrabaho na ngayon sa hotel. Nakita nya si Daniel Radcliffe at kinausap sya! Humingi daw ng ketchup. Walang fans kasi puro businessmen naandun. Mond, bakit hindi ka ngpa-autograph?! Miski pic sa mobile phone mo. One word: SAYANG.
I need to know "what is".
listening to: Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional
These are some of my recent drawings.
Some I like, some I not much.
But they're all precious to me.
I need to know "what is".
listening to: There She Goes - The La's
How's your Holy Week so far?
I remember when I was little, I'm an unsanera and I'm also part of the church choir (for a short while) of St. Mary Magdalene School in Kawit (my hometown). Weeks before Holy Week, we would collect all kinds of colorful paper then my mom and I would cut them into little square pieces. I would have a cute basket and a nice dress for the said occassion. My mom's gay friend Tito Jimboy would do my hair and make-up. Kapag may Salubong, my mom would wake me up so early in the morning so that we'll watch the event near the church.
Yup, those were the days. Now... I couldn't even remember which day the Unsana and the Salubong would fall into. I guess you could say, I relied on my mom on these kinds of things. I wasn't very into it so... But it's kinda fun... Colorful for the most part. We're not really the religious type but my mom wants me to participate on these kinds of town activities. My family owns a "karo " and they take part in the prosisyon. I used to help with the flowers (usually sampaguita).
I guess now with my age and the fact that I don't go to SMMS anymore and I don't live in Kawit anymore either, I'm free from that mandatory obligation. I don't want to volunteer anyway coz I always find it awkward to be with my relatives (them, specifically). However, I didn't expect that right this moment, I actually miss being an unsanera. Oh the confettis... *hums*
Perhaps it's from being generally lethargic this week. Perhaps it's because of the weather (freakin' hot recently, my room's an oven!). Or perhaps it's because I miss Mom.
She'll be coming home this month... next week na actually. I'm getting excited. I desperately wanna hang-out with her. But that is also why I'm a bit disappointed with my OJT schedule. Ah whatever, it's not like I could change that now.
So what's up with me this week? Well, (at home) got a lot of free time to be lazy and mope-y. Gladys and I watch movies while doing our own stuff. Multi-tasking ftw! She recently made a "sandal" (I don't know exactly the name of the footwear) from her slippers. It looked pretty cool, I'm proud of her! I'll put a pic of it here later.
Just yesterday, we had a Yu Yu Hakusho marathon (season 1), the english dub one (coz I miss Justin Cook and Chris Sabat's voices). I pretty much memorized most of their lines anyhow so I seldom watch-watch, I just listen to them while drawing. Yup, you read it right. After 2 years, my "dormant" hand drew again. I drew 3 girls. The last one, I didn't get to finish. The first one didn't look so good coz I was experimenting on poses and it was rather hard for me to stay away from the basic profile look I usually draw. The second one was my favorite of the three. I think it turned out nice. I'll post pictures of it here later. I don't have a scanner, so... don't expect the image to be good.
Moving on to reading-- I recently got into Fables, a comic book series/graphic novel by Bill Willingham, thanks to Pong. The plot's pretty interesting to those who likes to "see" (read about) fairytale characters on a different perspectives. The "what-ifs" are established and fantasy and reality got "close". Mind you though (and Pong warned me hehe), this series is not for children. There are some mature content within like violence, infidelity, revenge, and other themes.
The artworks in Fables (by Mark Buckingham, Lan Medina, Steve Leialoha, and Craig Hamilton) were great. Only a few friends of mine know that when I was little, I made about 5 comic strips. I couldn't draw that "well" back then and it's hard to umm draw the background (like furnitures and other stuff) so I lost interest afterwards. I still wanted to draw though. Heck, I used to even draw on tissue papers. Just gimme a pen or a pencil and I would draw on anything... anything within the range of what is moral and legal, I mean. So anyway, initially, I thought of trying to draw Snow (my version) yesterday. I didn't get to though, but someday I will. I might even draw other princesses.
Btw, has anyone read the latest chapter of Naruto (manga)? I'm getting excited of the outcome of Naruto and Nagato's talk. Perhaps Naruto's altruism, kindness, and "charm" will save everyone. But that will just be too easy, so... Hmmm. Anyway, where the heck is Sasuke now? I didn't notice his absence for like 6 chapters already.
Yondaime Hokage: I... am your father!
Speaking of manga, here's an interesting link I saw today after I checked my yahoo email. Here's what I read:
TOKYO (AFP) - - Japan's manga and anime heroes could come to the rescue of the recession-hit economy, Prime Minister Taro Aso, an avid fan of the country's cartoons, said in a speech Thursday.This is the article. It's certainly a "who-woulda-thought" moment for me. The consumers of such merchandize will have a sense of fulfillment when they read this... kinda makes their actions err... justified.
"The word 'manga' has entered the global lexicon... Japan has materials that attract consumers around the world such as animation, games, fashion -- so-called 'Japan Cool'," the conservative premier told a press conference.
As the world's number two economy is struggling with its deepest post-war recession, Aso said the government could facilitate overseas exports of manga, video games, fashion and other "soft power" cultural products.
"Many Japan-based fashion magazines enjoy top-level popularity" in the Chinese market, said the 68-year-old premier.
"By linking the popularity of Japan's 'soft power' with business, we wish to grow it into a major industry worth 20-30 trillion yen (200-300 billion dollars) and create 500,000 new jobs by 2020," he said in a speech.
Known for his sometimes gruff manner, Aso has sought to soften his image in recent years by casting himself as a Japanese "otaku" -- someone whose hobby borders on obsession -- by praising manga.
"... create 500,000 new jobs by 2020"
- the part I liked the most
Here's something else I'd like to share: I got the link from a fellow plurker. It's a bit amusing:
Here's the link to the site.
there is no egg in eggplant
no ham in hamburger
and neither pine nor apple in the pineapple
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France
we sometimes take English for granted
but if we examine its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand takes you down slowly
boxing rings are square
and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor it is a pig
if writers write, fingers don't fing
if the plural of tooth is teeth
shouldn't be the plural of phone booth be phone
if the teacher taught
why didn't the preacher praught?
if a vegetarian eats vegetables,
what the heck does a humanitarian eat? (This part cracks me up.)
why don't people recite at play
yet play at recital?
park on driveways and drive on parkways
how can the weather be as hot as hell on one day
and as cold as hell on another?
you have to marvel at the unique lunacy
of a language where a house burn up as it burns down
and which you fill in a form by filling it out
and a bell is only heard once it goes?
English was invented by people, not computers
and it reflects the creativity of the human race
that is why, when the stars are out, they are visible
but when the lights are out, they are invisible
and why is it that when i wind up my watch
but when i wind up this poem
The current songs on my playlist:
(Hmm maybe I should make this list every week..?)
Ashlee Simpson - Invisible
You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
Bethany Joy Lenz - Don't Walk Away
If I made a promise
I would stay by your side
Its only the beginning
I love you
Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels Like Home
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Jimmy Eat World - Kill
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
Jojo - Not That Kinda Girl
I'm not your every day, around the way
Don't go car-hoppin', chillin' on the block
On a cell phone frontin'
Never that, coz I'm not that kinda girl
Katherine Mcphee - Over It
That's why (your words)
I'm over it (so sure)
I'm over it (I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
Natalie - Love You So
You can say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Ok Go - Invincible
That crushing, crashing, atom-smashing, white-hot thing
The Corrs - Breathless
So go on, go on
Come on leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me
'Till I can't deny this
Let me long for your kiss
Go on, go on
Yeah come on
Train - Calling All Angels
When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said
Valeria Andrews and Ryan Toby - Pay Attention
If you wanna be somebody
If you wanna go somewhere
You better wake up and pay attention
When the time is now or never
To make your dreams come true
You gotta wake up and pay attention
I need to know "what is".
listening to: none
I was plurking today and it was then I realized that it's April Fool's Day~! AFD is really an insignificant day for me (maybe because even though I'd love to do something mischievous, it might spell trouble so I'd rather not) except for maybe once in my life. But anyway, I came across this plurk comment from a friend. It went something like: "It's April Fool's Day! Teka, sino nga ba si April?" It just cracked me up.
Also, as I was plurking, I came across another friend who searched for her nickname on the Urban Dictionary-- something most bored teenagers would do nowadays. I have tried that too in the past. Here's 3 of the results:
"She is a crazy girl."
The #5 was "refreshing" (but the tags are horrible) since #1-4 where all about the slang term for Bulimia, much like #6, which is quite unbecoming really. The #7 was something I thought fictional (because my friends and I would joke about how I'd have my own airport) until today: here.
Ang daming mga kalokohan na lumalaganap sa "inernet".
So... have you tried searching for your nickname on Urban Dictionary?
I need to know "what is".