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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 11:46 PM

mood: ok
listening to: Violin Romance #2 - Beethoven

For the first time, I saw and heard someone play the violin in person. There was no mic in front of the violinist so we couldn't really hear the melody much. Too bad. It could've been a Nodame Cantabile moment. [Except that it wasn't a music competition nor an orchestra.]

I suddenly want to ask my cousin Ate Sarah to play the violin for me. Too bad we're not close. I don't even know where in Switzerland she lives in now.

Anyway, I was saddened by the fact that I have these dreams of being able to play 3 musical instruments (the flute, the piano, and the violin) and not enough time nor money to have [formal] lessons... even for just one.

When I was a freshman in high school, I got interested with the sound of the flute. It's so peaceful. I had a one-day lesson with a friend, Suzanne Baines. She's in a band at school. She lent me her flute.. or well, a part of it: the mouthpiece. She said that one must properly blow in order to create the right sounds. She told me it took her more than like 3 days to properly blow through the mouthpiece. In an hour or so, I got the hang of it. It made me wonder if I actually have a musical talent... or if she's just being an encouraging pal.

But thanks, Suzanne. I will forever remember you for that. That and your awesome shade of natural red hair.

The next day I drew a girl wearing a kimono, sitting under a tree playing the flute. Here it is:


Yeah, it's last 2002. It's old as you can see with the paper.




closer look


My desk is also old. It looks disorganized but it's actually organized.


If you study and/or analyze my drawing closely, you'll notice what my current problem was that year.

Anywa, my flute craze passed over the years. Somehow.. when I look back to how I got interested in it in the first place, it was probably because during that year, I crave peace and tranquility. I'm not going to elaborate much on how I really do need peace that year. Maybe later. Anyway, aside from that reason, it was also perhaps because in that period of early adolescence, I am in dire need to develop an identity. It was an unconscious desire. A cousin of mine plays the violin, two play piano, one plays the guitar and one plays the drums. In the back of my mind, maybe I want something to cast me aside from them but on a certain level, be one of them too.

Ah, the adolescent years.

About the piano.. even when I was little, I am pretty much attracted to piano pieces. I used to have like one of those piano/keyboard toys that kids play with. I was serious about it though. I even composed a few short pieces. I wasn't familiar with the notes back then so I'd just label the keys with numbers and list those numbers. I was a bit ambitious about my pieces. Some took days to compose, some took like a week. I think they're really good, not the "a kid made this crap" good, no. I wish you guys could hear it. I wonder where they are now.

Around a decade ago, I watched this movie called Little Secrets when we were at my Tita Cherry's house. She had cable and that movie was on HBO. It stars Evan Rachel Wood, Michael Angarano, and David Gallagher. I didn't know Wood and Angarano that time but I do know of David Gallagher because we used to watch 7th Heaven religiously on Studio 23. Anyway, it was on that time when I first got facinated with the violin.

Years passed and at the time I got addicted to Jdramas, I found this one called Nodame Cantabile. The title was very familiar to me because I would always come across the manga at National Bookstore. I thought I'd try it since a lot of people are raving about it. I wanted to rate it myself. When I watched a couple of episodes, I noticed, I couldn't get away from it! I just had to go onto the next one. That was how the series got to me. It was awesome. I seriously recommend it. My friend May doesn't really like classical music nor Jdramas. In fact, she really doesn't like Jdramas. I practically forced her to finish at least like an episode. As it turned out, I had to force her to stop watching or else she won't come to her class!


Anyway, in connection with Nodame Cantabile, I really loved watching the characters play their instruments. I loved watching and listening to Nodame and Chiaki as well as Kiyora Miki. I never knew how much an orchestra could trigger emotions like that. It sounds a bit cheesy, but seriously, I cried in some parts. In other parts, I found myself swaying a bit from the music. I simply love it. I downloaded a bunch of pieces from the internet. Some of them I transfered to my back-up EHD, Max, that got corrupted. So sad. My favorite ones are still here though. What a relief. The cds cost a lot. I checked.

So there. I appreciate and marvel at different forms of art. Just as I've tried sketching, drawing, painting, photography, and others, I'd like to experience music... To not merely listen. I'd like to create music and be able to share the music that I create.

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I want to stop wondering "what-ifs".
I need to know "what is".

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